Once again, my life consists of quotes ;D

“Mistakes are always forgivable, if one has the courage to admit them.”
- Bruce Lee

“Your friend is the man who knows all about you and still likes you.”
- Elbert Hubbard

“Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed.”
- Storm Jameson

Chino Hills

If I hadn't moved back to PA from CA, this is the marching band I would have been in:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JFZ1YOZmq9g

Inventory...

Right leg:

• HUGE bruise on lower part of leg from gym when I got kicked
• Knee still scarred from jumping off the stage... :P
• Scar above knee from Trolley's party at the beginning of the summer when I sat too close to the bonfire
• SORENESS

Left leg:

• Medium bruise on loewr part of leg from when I fell out of my bus seat after being woken up
• Small bruise above my favorite freckle from...no idea
• SORENESS

Right arm:

• Upper arm sore

Left arm:

• ...nothing!!!

Butt:

• SORENESS...darn you Powderpuff Football...

Uh yeah...I think that about covers everything. :P

The heart of life is good

Pain throws your heart to the ground; love turns the whole thing around. No it won't all go the way it should, but I know the heart of life is good.

Lyrical Autobiography

I seriously could write an autobiography about my life just using lyrics...haha. They are SO awesome...especially when I have a whole bunch of random feelings and finding the exact lyrics that fit what I'm experiencing. YESSSSSS.

Your guard is up and I know why
Because the last time you saw me
It still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you
Saying I'm sorry for that night

Oh Stumble...how you make me laugh sometimes... ;D

“I’m tired of all the nonsense about beauty being only skin-deep. That’s deep enough. What do you want – an adorable pancreas?”
- Jean Kerr

I'm gonna try this new thing called "honesty"...

So I know the title sounds REALLY bad...but I'll explain.

I don't mean like being honest with other people, I try my hardest to be completely honest with others all the time.

I mean with MYSELF.

I haven't been too honest with myself for awhile. Honest about my feelings...about my flaws...my imperfections...all that. And I'm just starting to embrace all of it, and you know what's happened? I've been learning. I haven't exploded. Being honest with myself hasn't destroyed me.

So yeah...let's give this honesty thing a go.

Funny STORY!!! *slaps table*

Oh my goodness...tonight at the dinner table was AWESOME.

Before dinner, I figured out that I could plug my iPod into this stereo thing we have in my kitchen...like it plays CDs and has radio and all that, but I found this cord thing so I can plug my iPod into it and it plays my iPod music!!! I was quite excited about that. :D

So during dinner I had my "25 Most Played Songs" going and I was rocking out and all that...well it got to one song and it was kind of like a rap song and I started singing along and doing all that gangsta dancing jawn...haha! So after I finished a verse, mom's just LOOKING at me, and I'm like "What???" and then she starts mimicking me and it was HYSTERICAL. Like...she looked so BIZARRE. Haha! That was funny moment number one...

Now on to number two... (uh oh ;D)

Another song was on and I was just groovin' with it, having a good time...and Sanya looks at me and says, "Rachel...you look like one of those show biz girls" and mom LOSES IT. Like...she took it the BAD WAY...and once she lost it...there was no gettin it back!

So then Sanya's trying to save herself and explain and she goes "Like...you just put on that weird thing" and we're all like WHAT?? and mom's DYING and she tries again and says "You know! You dance all crazy..." and then mom's just gone. Crying. Red in the face. Slapping the table. Oh yeah...it was quite a sight... ;D

So uh yeah...that was my dinner tonight.

And then after dinner, March of the Cute Little Woodsprites came on and I did an interpretive dance to the ENTIRE THING. Best workout of my LIFE!!!!! ;D

TIME TO GO WATCH CHUCK NOW!!!!!!!!

Happy sigh of relief...

"I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on"

Long car ride today...

Oh the joys of being in the car for a long time and finding songs on your iPod with the perfect lyrics you needed in the moment.

"How did it come to this?
I think about you all the time
It's no excuse, but I wish
That I never made you cry"

I'm not sorry that it's over
But for the way we let it end
I couldn't find the words to say"

"And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours"

"I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you


Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this"

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes!!!

AHHHH!!!!!!!!!! HOMECOMING!!!!!!!!!!!

It was awesome. :D

Went in the morning to help decorate...hah...me and Shep did like nothing...we covered three vending machines with black paper and then spent the rest of the time pretending to do jawn so we didn't have to cut out millions of little paper stars. :P

After that I went and got my hair done, then picked up Jeanmarie (my little freshman marching saxophone buddy), did her hair at my house, then she got picked up...then I ate dinner, put my dress on, did makeup...went to a photoshoot (aka me standing among plants while mom and dad go crazy with the camera ;D) and then zoomed off to Cara's house!!!

Got to Homecoming...gave Shep an awesome purple tie...went in...put our stuff in baggies...gushed over all my friends and how insanely awesome they looked...then went in to dance.

The dance was just...amazing. Like, chill and relaxing and drama free and stress free. At least that's how I felt. Like...all my problems and issues didn't matter for those three hours and I just had an insanely good time singing along to the songs I knew and mouthing nonsense to the songs I didn't. ;D

I discovered the other day that I love political cartoons

In AP English we're doing a project about controversial issues in the news and I picked abortion. This week we had to find a graphic related to our topic and so I started looking at political cartoons...and kept looking at them until the end of the period. They are SO good...like, I just enjoy reading them so much. So here are some that I found that I really liked...

Sidenote: the last one is my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE.

Real love...

I AM SO CONFUSED.

Why????

It makes NO sense!!!

Note to Self: I CAN NEVER FORGET THIS

*I pick up phone*

"Hello?"

"Hey...I need to talk to you, can you get on AIM?"

....BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!

"King of Anything"

So I was on youtube and just looking around and clicking on a bunch of different random songs, and I found this song called "King of Anything" by Sara Bareilles. I've never heard it before, and I really liked it...so I thought I'd share in case it's new for you too!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RPk4_XfYhjg&feature=related

Disclaimer: this song isn't "meant for anyone" and I'm not like mad or anything right now...the song's just catchy and I like the lyrics and all that. But that's it...haha, just thought I'd clarify. ;D

To be perfectly honest...

...tonight when Josh and Sanya were occupied in front of the TV downstairs, I went up to my room, shut the door, changed into my dress for Homecoming, turned on the radio, and danced for like...ten minutes.

No lie.

I felt ridiculously silly.

But it was ridiculously awesome.

BOO. YAH.

I had an angry moment today. An angry moment that made me very happy.

We were playing soccer today in gym and I was on the offense.  Every time I'd get the ball down to the other end near the net, there was this girl on the other team standing there who always ran at me and flailed her legs until she kicked the ball away.

After like the third time that happened, I heard her say something like "Oh yeah! Got it back over there!" which is fine, right? Right.

Well then it progressed from that, to "That's right! Get back on your side!" and "Boo yah! You can't get past me!" and "Oh look she (meaning me) tried again and FAILED!!!" (hah...it's so rude but true...I stink at soccer :P)

This is going on and on and I'm just getting FED UP...like seriously P.O.ed.

So one time as I'm dribbling (aka stumbling) down the court towards the goal, I see her coming and I'm just like...you know what? I'm just gonna kick it right past her and try to get it in the goal...and who cares if it doesn't go in, at least she won't brag about how "nothing gets past her".  So I kicked the ball as hard as I could...and it didn't go in the net. Something EVEN BETTER happened...it smacked her square in the chest.

On the inside I'm screaming YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then I ran up to her and asked all sweet and innocently, "Oh my word are you ok??" and she just grunted and glared at me...HAH.

BOO. YAH. INDEED.

"Everything's gonna be all right..."

You know what? Everything will be okay...life will go on...and I will make it fantastic.

Everything that I do reminds me of you

"I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone"

"When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you"

"I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you"

"I could put my arms around every boy I see
But they'd only remind me of you"

Oh Life...

...thou art complicated.

"100 Ways to Uncomplicate Your Life"

So I was stumbling the other day (of course) and I came across a site that was titled "100 Ways to Uncomplicate Your Life". I read through the entire list and found some that I really liked and that I could try to work on. The list is kinda longuh...so I just picked out my favorites. (If you wanna read it all...it's here: http://livethecharmedlife.com/2010/08/100-ways-to-uncomplicate-your-life/comment-page-1/)

1. Don’t try to read other people’s minds
7. Don’t try to be friends with everyone. Cultivate closer relationships with fewer people.
9. Before getting angry, ask yourself if it will really matter in 20 years
10. Focus on being a good person, not on pleasing others
12. Kiss and make up
20. For just one day, imagine everyone’s intentions are good because most people’s are
23. When you have a conflict with someone, talk it out. Don’t let it turn into more than it is.
24. Know what your priorities are in life, and act as if they are your priorities
25. Tell the truth
28. If you’re holding a ridiculous grudge, let it go
31. Don’t eat when you aren’t hungry
32. Eat when you are hungry
33. Be yourself
34. Say no unapologetically
45. Avoid drama
49. Refuse to gossip, or talk behind other people’s backs
50. Do the dishes right after dinner
51. Never go to sleep angry
52. Ask nicely for what you need and want
57. Don’t envy others
66. Don’t look for reasons to be angry or sad, look for reasons to be happy. You’ll always be able to find plenty of each.
71. Do what you say you’ll do, when you say you’ll do it
73. Forgive and forget. End of story.
80. Don’t let your imagination run away with you
81. Let go of perfection in others
82. Let go of perfection in yourself
83. Don’t try to help those that refuse to help themselves
86. Drink more water
88. Don’t make a mountain out of a molehill
94. Slow down
100. If a relationship is over, let it go

CONTROL FREAK

I. AM. A. CONTROL. FREAK.

I need to control my grades.
I need to control my actions.
I need to control my thoughts.
I need to control my feelings.

I need to control my feelings...BUT I FREAKING CAN'T.

And what's worse? I don't even understand them...

Yaaay...quotes! ;D

If you want to be happy, be. – Leo Tolstoy

Man is fond of counting his troubles, but he does not count his joys. If he counted them up as he ought to, he would see that every lot has enough happiness provided for it. – Fyodor Dostoevsky

Jumping for joy is good exercise.

Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things. – Robert Brault (AMEN BROTHER!)

Today is a new day.   – Chicken Little

Speak your mind even if your voice shakes.

You must do the thing you think you cannot do. – Eleanor Roosevelt

Learning to live in the present moment is part of the path to joy. – Sarah Ban Breathnach

"Who sees the human face correctly...

...photographer, the mirror, or the painter?"

Interesting...

http://www.msethjones.com/rollovers/

I miss you.

The grand essentials of happiness are...

“The grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.” — Allan K. Chalmers



“The basic thing is that everyone wants happiness, no one wants suffering. And happiness mainly comes from our own attitude, rather than from external factors. If your own mental attitude is correct, even if you remain in a hostile atmosphere, you feel happy.” — H.H. the Dalai Lama



“We either make ourselves happy or miserable. The amount of work is the same.” — Carlos Castañeda

For you, Alice!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vYhjBcYnzvU

"Who will make me Mr. A?"
"I!!"
"You?"
"YES!"
"...HOW?"
"...by physical force if necessary."

HAHA!!

Bring "Me" Home...

God on high
Hear my prayer
In my need
You have always been there

I am young
I'm afraid
Let me rest
Heaven blessed.