Sigh...life.

I am so ready to go to college...

I feel like my life is in triple fast-forward right now. I have to keep up with all my classes, I have to stay on top of jazz band, wind ensemble, indoor percussion, and symphony, I have to write a resume/cover letter for career study and get that figured out, I have to apply to Millersville's Honors College, I have to start preparing for AP tests, and on top of it all this week has a huge workload that I'm not prepared for.

Those are all my HAVE TO's...I also have my WANT TO's, and my family and friends unfortunately fall under that category.

I want more time with my family...I want to be able to see my dad more often. I want to bond with my sister cause I know she's struggling with stuff. I want to play video games with my brother. I want to have relaxing time with my mom, it seems to be always hectic and stressful now. I want to see my friends more. I want to actually HAVE a close circle of friends.

Figured out yesterday that David won't be able to go to post-prom because he'll already have left for Bluecoats. I told my mom about it and she said, "Well why don't you go with a group of friends?" WHAT group of friends? I have sprinklings here and there but not one big group that I'd spend five hours with at post-prom.

Sigh...life.

I want to have more patience.
I want to have peace.

Shakespearean Hokey-Pokey

O proud left foot, that ventures quick within
Then soon upon a backward journey lithe.
Anon, once more the gesture, then begin:
Command sinistral pedestal to write.
Commence thou then the fervid Hokey-Poke.
A mad gyration, hips in wanton swirl.
To spin! A wilde release from heaven's yoke.
Blessed dervish! Surely canst go, girl
The Hoke, the poke -- banish now thy doubt
Verily, I say, 'tis what it's all about.