Thursday, September 30, 2010
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
HE LOVES YOU
For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life (John 3:16).
But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved (Ephesians 2:4-5).
The LORD your God is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with his love, He will rejoice over you with singing (Zephaniah 3:17).
As a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on His children (Psalm 103:13).
But God demonstrates His own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8).
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord (Romans 8:38-39).
The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love (Psalm 103:8).
...put your hope in the LORD, for with the LORD is unfailing love and with Him is full redemption (Psalm 130:7).
We love because He first loved us (1 John 4:19).
...and you know what? I love you too.
But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved (Ephesians 2:4-5).
The LORD your God is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with his love, He will rejoice over you with singing (Zephaniah 3:17).
As a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on His children (Psalm 103:13).
But God demonstrates His own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8).
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord (Romans 8:38-39).
The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love (Psalm 103:8).
...put your hope in the LORD, for with the LORD is unfailing love and with Him is full redemption (Psalm 130:7).
We love because He first loved us (1 John 4:19).
...and you know what? I love you too.
What a Dinner!!!
Oh my word dinner was GREAT tonight!!! Ok...I gotta remember all of this...
- There was a stink bug buzzing and flying around our light above the kitchen table. We all looked up at it really annoyed and Mom was like, "Oh...that fan is DIRTY!!" and I reached behind me and flicked off the light so you couldn't see the dust and then Mom says, "Well...that takes care of that problem!" We then ate the rest of dinner in darkness.
- We decided I'm invincible! After laughing a bunch about the dust/light off thing, Sanya goes, "This is a healthy dinner!" and we all kinda look at her and she explains "Cause we're all laughing!" and then Josh says, "Yeah...isn't it like everytime you laugh you get an extra year added onto your life?" and everyone was kinda like uh....and then I go, "WELL I GUESS I'M INVINCIBLE!!!" ;D
- Mom cracked her knuckles and I told her that you shouldn't do that cause then you'll get Alzheimer's...oops...wrong word... :P
- So this one is gonna be interesting to explain...ok. I had a meatball on my fork and with the fork in my hand, I suddenly raised both my arms up in the air with my other hand in a fist...paused, and then lowered my arms. After Sanya, Mom, and Josh finished laughing at how silly I looked I explained that I was gonna burp and it was gonna be awesome but then it went away...so I lowered my hands...haha.
- We had spaghetti, meatballs, and buttered toast tonight. When I was eating my toast, I ripped it half and slowly ate the first part. Well it took me so long to eat it that I forgot I had the second half on my plate. So when I was done eating I got really sad, but then I looked down and gasped, "I HAVE MORE TOAST! I THOUGHT IT WAS ALL GONE! BUT NO THERE'S MORE HERE ON MY PLATE! OH I'M SO HAPPY!!!"...then I commenced with the "Happy happy joy joy" dance... ;D
- I got another meatball on my fork, and while talking to mom, I swooped my fork to the side and the meatball FLEW off my fork, klonked against the wall and then dropped to the floor. I started laughing but calmed down after a bit...HOWEVER. MY MOTHER. My goodness...she was DYING! Like tears streaming down her face! Then she got up from the table and like hobbled with a hunchback over to the bathroom...SHE WAS ABOUT TO PEE HER PANTS!!! So she finally makes it to the bathroom...shuts the door...and then starts CRACKING UP ALL OVER AGAIN. Do you know how HYSTERICAL it is to listen to someone laughing while they're in a bathroom???
- Once she recovered slightly, we all sang "On Top of Spaghetti"...when it got to the last line, "It rolled into the garden, and under a bush, and then my poor meatball...was nothing but MUSH!" I SLAMMED my hand down on the meatball that had flown off my fork...causing another eruption of hysterics.
Procrastination...you goin' DOWN!!!
So you know how a lot of times people say, "Just live in the moment!!!" and stuff like that?
Well I realized something...living in the moment is absolutely perfect, because everything about it encourages procrastination.
Think about it! Why would you NOT procrastinate? So that you don't have as much work later and don't have to spend as much time on it so you divy (I KNOW I have heard that word but I'm just guessing that's how it's spelled? :P) up the work over time.
BUT. If you're living in the moment...you're not thinking about the future or the homework load the next day. You just wanna enjoy the NOW. And who WANTS to do homework in the "now"?
So uh yeah. Boo yah. ;D
Well I realized something...living in the moment is absolutely perfect, because everything about it encourages procrastination.
Think about it! Why would you NOT procrastinate? So that you don't have as much work later and don't have to spend as much time on it so you divy (I KNOW I have heard that word but I'm just guessing that's how it's spelled? :P) up the work over time.
BUT. If you're living in the moment...you're not thinking about the future or the homework load the next day. You just wanna enjoy the NOW. And who WANTS to do homework in the "now"?
So uh yeah. Boo yah. ;D
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
"Again" by Bruno Mars
Loving stuff by this guy!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wJXgqkvB9s&feature=related
Hands over my head thinking what else could go wrong?
Wouldve stayed in bed, how can a day be so long?
Never believed that things happen for a reason
But how this turned out, you moved all my doubts, oh believe
That for you Ill do it all over again
Do it all over again
All I went through, led me to you
So Id do it all over again
For you
I missed the first train, stood out in the rain, all day
Little did I know
When I caught the next train, there you were to sweep me away
Guess thats what I've waited for
Never believed that things happened for a reason
But how this turned out, you moved all my doubts, oh believe
That for you Ill do it all over again
Do it all over again
All I went through, led me to you
So Id do it all over again
(Ohh) Who ever thought a day gone so wrong, would turn out so lovely
Im so glad I found you
Even though the day went so wrong, I wouldnt change a thing (yeah, yeah, oh Ill do it)
Ill do it all over again
Do it all over again
All I went through, led me to you
So Ill do it all over again (yeah, yeah ohh)
Ill do it all over again (Id do it all over, Id do it all over)
Do it all over again (Id do it all over for you, for you)
all I went through, led me to you (all I went through, it led me to you)
so Id do it all over again (over again)
Who ever thought a day gone so wrong, could turn out so lovely ohh
Who ever thought a day gone so wrong, could turn out so lovely
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wJXgqkvB9s&feature=related
Hands over my head thinking what else could go wrong?
Wouldve stayed in bed, how can a day be so long?
Never believed that things happen for a reason
But how this turned out, you moved all my doubts, oh believe
That for you Ill do it all over again
Do it all over again
All I went through, led me to you
So Id do it all over again
For you
I missed the first train, stood out in the rain, all day
Little did I know
When I caught the next train, there you were to sweep me away
Guess thats what I've waited for
Never believed that things happened for a reason
But how this turned out, you moved all my doubts, oh believe
That for you Ill do it all over again
Do it all over again
All I went through, led me to you
So Id do it all over again
(Ohh) Who ever thought a day gone so wrong, would turn out so lovely
Im so glad I found you
Even though the day went so wrong, I wouldnt change a thing (yeah, yeah, oh Ill do it)
Ill do it all over again
Do it all over again
All I went through, led me to you
So Ill do it all over again (yeah, yeah ohh)
Ill do it all over again (Id do it all over, Id do it all over)
Do it all over again (Id do it all over for you, for you)
all I went through, led me to you (all I went through, it led me to you)
so Id do it all over again (over again)
Who ever thought a day gone so wrong, could turn out so lovely ohh
Who ever thought a day gone so wrong, could turn out so lovely
Monday, September 27, 2010
Sam Tsui
So a couples posts ago I wrote about how I love the song "Just the Way You Are" by Bruno Mars...well this is a cover for that song (mixed with a little of Billy Joel's "Just the Way You Are") and I LOVE IT!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=29RsFUfdWjA&feature=channel (Sidnote: start this around 0:32...and minimize it cause he makes some odd faces at the camera. :P)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=29RsFUfdWjA&feature=channel (Sidnote: start this around 0:32...and minimize it cause he makes some odd faces at the camera. :P)
Blue Snout...
Background: Awhile ago at the dinner table I was drinking out of my big blue Pepsi cup and someone had said it looked like a snout.
Tonight: I was taking a drink and I think Josh made the comment this time...that it looked like I had a huge snout. And so as a joke, I started making pig noises, like the snorts and stuff. We were all cracking up and then mom whipped out her phone and told me to snort...I THOUGHT she was trying to get a picture (though now I realize why would I have to be snorting for a picture? :P) but no...low and behold she got a video of me...
Tonight: I was taking a drink and I think Josh made the comment this time...that it looked like I had a huge snout. And so as a joke, I started making pig noises, like the snorts and stuff. We were all cracking up and then mom whipped out her phone and told me to snort...I THOUGHT she was trying to get a picture (though now I realize why would I have to be snorting for a picture? :P) but no...low and behold she got a video of me...
In one of those "I just watched a cute movie" moods... ;D
“Listen to me, mister. You’re my knight in shining armor. Don’t forget it.”
“As you wish.”
“…If, however, your feelings have changed, I will have to tell you: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love … I love … I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on.”
"A life without love is no life at all"
“The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds and that’s what you’ve given me.”
“I’m scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I’m with you”
“If you love someone, you say it, say it right then and there, out loud, otherwise the moment just passes you by.”
So cute. :D
“As you wish.”
“…If, however, your feelings have changed, I will have to tell you: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love … I love … I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on.”
"A life without love is no life at all"
“The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds and that’s what you’ve given me.”
“I’m scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I’m with you”
“If you love someone, you say it, say it right then and there, out loud, otherwise the moment just passes you by.”
So cute. :D
URGH
JENNY YOU ARE IN SUCH BIG TROUBLE.
YOUR POST SCARED THE LIVING POOP OUT OF ME.
I SERIOUSLY HAD A TEAR ROLLING DOWN MY CHEEK JUST AS I WAS SCROLLING DOWN TO SEE THE END OF YOUR POST.
URGH...
Well, just know that my freakout made me realize again how much I deeply love you and miss you and need you and yeah...so uh, yeah, I guess you're off the hook...hehe. :D
YOUR POST SCARED THE LIVING POOP OUT OF ME.
I SERIOUSLY HAD A TEAR ROLLING DOWN MY CHEEK JUST AS I WAS SCROLLING DOWN TO SEE THE END OF YOUR POST.
URGH...
Well, just know that my freakout made me realize again how much I deeply love you and miss you and need you and yeah...so uh, yeah, I guess you're off the hook...hehe. :D
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Why did the chicken cross the road???
Machiavelli: So that its subjects will view it with admiration, as a chicken which has the daring and courage to boldly cross the road, but also with fear, for whom among them has the strength to contend with such a paragon of avian virtue? In such a manner is the princely chicken's dominion maintained.
Ernest Hemingway: To die. In the rain. (YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS)
Ernest Hemingway: To die. In the rain. (YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS)
Friday, September 24, 2010
Woah...never knew that!!!
"I work for an organization called Six Seconds. We’re called “Six Seconds” because of the way emotions work in our bodies. Suppose you’re playing and you break something you like. Here’s what happens in your brain:
The first ¼ second: You begin to pay attention and notice something happened.
Second ¼ second: Your brain begins to decide this is a problem, and produces a bunch of new chemicals.
Next ½ second: The chemicals go flowing into your brain and start going into your blood. These chemicals are messengers causing a whole bunch of different reactions in you (such as, tightening certain muscles, focusing your attention, making you tear up, changing the way you’re breathing).
Next 5 seconds: The chemicals continue to flow through your blood and go everywhere in your body. The emotion messenger chemicals cause different cells in your body to produce new chemicals — so they ripple through you expanding their effect.
After six seconds, the original chemicals are almost all gone. They’ve delivered their messages and you are now reacting to the mistake of breaking that item. Maybe you’re crying and sad, maybe your mad and wanting to blame, maybe you’re shocked and still, maybe you’re wanting to run away. Your reaction depends on how you’ve learned to deal with this flood of chemicals.
But here’s something amazing: Those original feeling chemicals are now gone. If you continue to feel sad/mad/afraid/hurt — whatever — you are actually choosing to re-create more and more of the feeling chemicals. You don’t HAVE to keep reacting. You’re reacting because that’s what you’ve learned to do. You can learn a different way of reacting."
The first ¼ second: You begin to pay attention and notice something happened.
Second ¼ second: Your brain begins to decide this is a problem, and produces a bunch of new chemicals.
Next ½ second: The chemicals go flowing into your brain and start going into your blood. These chemicals are messengers causing a whole bunch of different reactions in you (such as, tightening certain muscles, focusing your attention, making you tear up, changing the way you’re breathing).
Next 5 seconds: The chemicals continue to flow through your blood and go everywhere in your body. The emotion messenger chemicals cause different cells in your body to produce new chemicals — so they ripple through you expanding their effect.
After six seconds, the original chemicals are almost all gone. They’ve delivered their messages and you are now reacting to the mistake of breaking that item. Maybe you’re crying and sad, maybe your mad and wanting to blame, maybe you’re shocked and still, maybe you’re wanting to run away. Your reaction depends on how you’ve learned to deal with this flood of chemicals.
But here’s something amazing: Those original feeling chemicals are now gone. If you continue to feel sad/mad/afraid/hurt — whatever — you are actually choosing to re-create more and more of the feeling chemicals. You don’t HAVE to keep reacting. You’re reacting because that’s what you’ve learned to do. You can learn a different way of reacting."
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Happy happy joy joy!!!
Today was the best day I've had in a long time.
I was just happy all day...dunno why, I blame my awesome shoes, haha. ;D There's seriously not like a single thing that sticks out and it's like, "Oh, THIS made my day!" Nah...it was just a general good mood. And then marching band practice was AWESOMEEEEEEEE which of course adds to the amazingness of my day. :D
I think something that helped, was that I thought a lot about being "in the moment". I read an article the other day about that, how it helps with happiness and enjoying life and all that good stuff. I dunno if I even did it right, but like...I wouldn't think about what was coming next, or what had happened earlier or anything. It was just like...oh this is what's happening now, ok sure, this is awsome. I didn't go looking for a certain person to talk to, I talked with the people that were around me and just "went with the flow" (as my mommy would say...hehe). ;D
I don't think I explained that right...but ah well. Just know that I had a very good day and I was very happy. :D
I was just happy all day...dunno why, I blame my awesome shoes, haha. ;D There's seriously not like a single thing that sticks out and it's like, "Oh, THIS made my day!" Nah...it was just a general good mood. And then marching band practice was AWESOMEEEEEEEE which of course adds to the amazingness of my day. :D
I think something that helped, was that I thought a lot about being "in the moment". I read an article the other day about that, how it helps with happiness and enjoying life and all that good stuff. I dunno if I even did it right, but like...I wouldn't think about what was coming next, or what had happened earlier or anything. It was just like...oh this is what's happening now, ok sure, this is awsome. I didn't go looking for a certain person to talk to, I talked with the people that were around me and just "went with the flow" (as my mommy would say...hehe). ;D
I don't think I explained that right...but ah well. Just know that I had a very good day and I was very happy. :D
Sunday, September 19, 2010
True Dat
"The average person tells 4 lies a day, and 1460 a year. A total of 88,000 by the age of 6. And the most common lie is I’m fine.”
Complicated Honesty
Honesty.
For me, it gets complicated when I have to be honest with myself. When I have to really sit down and think through something...like why I feel a certain way, why I reacted the way I did, why something bugs me...all that good stuff.
Well...it's time for some complicated Rachel honesty...
I miss being in a relationship. That was my realization the other day. I REALLY miss having someone to talk to about the littlest things, someone who understands me even when I make no sense at all, someone who is always there, someone who wants to always help...but while I was thinking about that, I also realized that I don't necessarily miss David as being that person. I don't miss my relationship with HIM, I just miss the relationship...if that makes any sense at all. :P
So in thinking about all that, I also got thinking about how I have this need to feel connected to people. I like being involved in other people's lives and I like sharing my life and myself with them too. And now that I'm not in a relationship, I feel like I've lost part of that. I'm sharing a whole lot less of myself with less people. And I think that bugs me...like consciously I don't really think about it that way, I just think about how I feel more on the outside and more disconnected and alone, but I think that's what it is. I miss sharing myself and always having that person to share with.
So I've been searching. Not really for a relationship (the smart side of me knows not to get into one of those for a LONG time), but just...for that connection. Oh and just to clarify, it's not like I'm not connected to anyone anymore. I still feel awesome about the best friends I have and the relationships there, it's just the loss of one huge relationship that I've felt has needed to be filled.
I was thinking about how I feel like there's a hole where my relationship with David used to be...and how I'm looking for ways of how to fill it back up again and FAST, and I took a step back, had an apostrophe, and then was very honest with myself:
My relationship with David took the place of my relationship with God.
And now David's gone, and I have the hole, and I'm trying to fill it. But did I ever think to fill it with God? Not until this point! My word I'm like the classic Sunday School illustration...where there's a picture of a heart and like a specific cut out in the middle where only God fits, even though the person tries to put in TV or friends or whatever...
I need to fix this. I need to get back to the close relationship I had with God before all this. I need to stop searching and doing things on my own. I need to give Him control again. I need to listen to Him again. I need Him to tell me what I should desire, instead of just assuming I know what's best for myself. I need to fall in love with Him again. I just need Him...
Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.
—Proverbs 3:5-6
For me, it gets complicated when I have to be honest with myself. When I have to really sit down and think through something...like why I feel a certain way, why I reacted the way I did, why something bugs me...all that good stuff.
Well...it's time for some complicated Rachel honesty...
I miss being in a relationship. That was my realization the other day. I REALLY miss having someone to talk to about the littlest things, someone who understands me even when I make no sense at all, someone who is always there, someone who wants to always help...but while I was thinking about that, I also realized that I don't necessarily miss David as being that person. I don't miss my relationship with HIM, I just miss the relationship...if that makes any sense at all. :P
So in thinking about all that, I also got thinking about how I have this need to feel connected to people. I like being involved in other people's lives and I like sharing my life and myself with them too. And now that I'm not in a relationship, I feel like I've lost part of that. I'm sharing a whole lot less of myself with less people. And I think that bugs me...like consciously I don't really think about it that way, I just think about how I feel more on the outside and more disconnected and alone, but I think that's what it is. I miss sharing myself and always having that person to share with.
So I've been searching. Not really for a relationship (the smart side of me knows not to get into one of those for a LONG time), but just...for that connection. Oh and just to clarify, it's not like I'm not connected to anyone anymore. I still feel awesome about the best friends I have and the relationships there, it's just the loss of one huge relationship that I've felt has needed to be filled.
I was thinking about how I feel like there's a hole where my relationship with David used to be...and how I'm looking for ways of how to fill it back up again and FAST, and I took a step back, had an apostrophe, and then was very honest with myself:
My relationship with David took the place of my relationship with God.
And now David's gone, and I have the hole, and I'm trying to fill it. But did I ever think to fill it with God? Not until this point! My word I'm like the classic Sunday School illustration...where there's a picture of a heart and like a specific cut out in the middle where only God fits, even though the person tries to put in TV or friends or whatever...
I need to fix this. I need to get back to the close relationship I had with God before all this. I need to stop searching and doing things on my own. I need to give Him control again. I need to listen to Him again. I need Him to tell me what I should desire, instead of just assuming I know what's best for myself. I need to fall in love with Him again. I just need Him...
Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.
—Proverbs 3:5-6
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Dear Blog...
Dear Blog...why is it so easy to come to you when I'm frustrated and sad? Why do my fingers itch to vent to you...instead of to actual people?
Dear Blog...why do I have so many thoughts in my head? Why is it so hard to keep them organized?
Dear Blog...was that really how it happened? It sure does explain a whole bunch of things...
Dear Blog...how much more confusing can life get???
Dear Blog...I gotta go to bed now. K thanks...bye...
Dear Blog...why do I have so many thoughts in my head? Why is it so hard to keep them organized?
Dear Blog...was that really how it happened? It sure does explain a whole bunch of things...
Dear Blog...how much more confusing can life get???
Dear Blog...I gotta go to bed now. K thanks...bye...
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Stumble!!!
I got a Stumble Button!!!!
Oh I'm so happy...and I'm so distracted from my homework...haha!!!
That's my big exciting news of the day. :D :D :D
Oh I'm so happy...and I'm so distracted from my homework...haha!!!
That's my big exciting news of the day. :D :D :D
Monday, September 6, 2010
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
"Nothing is a waste of time if you use the experience wisely"
You can try your hardest, you can do everything and say everything, but sometimes people just aren't worth trying over anymore...they aren't worth worrying about...it's important to know when to let go of someone who only brings you down.
You may have created my past and screwed up my present, but you have no control over my future.
Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will. So, don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.
You’ll never leave where you are until you decide where you’d rather be.
It’s not about being who everyone else wants you to be, it’s about being yourself and finding someone who loves every part of it.
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can’t change.
Nothing is a waste of time if you use the experience wisely.
You may have created my past and screwed up my present, but you have no control over my future.
Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will. So, don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.
You’ll never leave where you are until you decide where you’d rather be.
It’s not about being who everyone else wants you to be, it’s about being yourself and finding someone who loves every part of it.
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can’t change.
Nothing is a waste of time if you use the experience wisely.
Goodbye David
Something snapped in me. I had that moment where one second I was ok, and the next I ran up to my room, locked the door, crawled under my covers, and sobbed.
I'm done.
I have nothing to say to you. Nothing will be good enough for you. It won't be what you want to hear. I'm dong putting up with you bullying me, putting me down, attacking me, and purposefully hurting me. I don't deserve any of that.
I'm very disappointed in who you've turned into. You're not the same boy I fell in love with.
Goodbye David.
I'm done.
I have nothing to say to you. Nothing will be good enough for you. It won't be what you want to hear. I'm dong putting up with you bullying me, putting me down, attacking me, and purposefully hurting me. I don't deserve any of that.
I'm very disappointed in who you've turned into. You're not the same boy I fell in love with.
Goodbye David.
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