Me...

Ok, well, I'm exhausted but there's some stuff I've been thinking about for awhile that I just need to write about.

How to start...uh...well, let's start with ME. I'm not happy with me. I mean...I AM, but at the same time I'm not. I love who I am and all of that. But let's see...how to explain...it makes perfect sense in my head but it's tough to type out. :P

Uh...ok, a few years ago if you asked me if there was one thing I wanted to change about myself I would have said nothing, or maybe if I wanted my hair longer at that point I would have said longer hair...I dunno, you get the idea. But now...yeah, there's something I would want to change...

I'm not happy with my body. I'm just not. Not like, "Oh I hate myself"...just like, "There's things I want to change".

I just realized that I'm not that healthy right now (as in foods I eat and all that) and so I've thought more about that. About how much I really do eat and how much of it is bad and then I'm like, "Woah...what is that doing to my body?" and then I guess you just start thinking about it. Wishing my legs and arms had more muscle, wishing smaller sizes fit me, that sorta thing.

I'm not gonna go starve myself or anything, it's just a realization that I'm not happy with my body. I wanna eat more healthy foods and exercise a lot more. I LOVE that sore/tired feeling after a great workout. But sometimes after I eat a lot I just feel fat...and I absolutely hate it.

So...yeah. That's about it. I wanna be healthier.