Going along with the last post...I went back and looked at my personality profile for fun and started reading some stuff again and figured I'd post some thoughts. So here I go!!
For those who don't know...I'm an ESFJ (caregiver), which stands for Extraverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Judging.
I was just reading through the thing again (http://www.personalitypage.com/ESFJ.html) and I could pick a lot of stuff out cause I think it's pretty much ALL true, but I thought I'd point out my 'weaknesses' and stuff, cause I think that's good for me to realize and think about.
"ESFJs are such caring individuals, that they sometimes have a hard time seeing or accepting a difficult truth about someone they care about."
This is all VERY true...I know that I look for the best in people, and once I find it, it's hard for me to see much else. Like I've said before...it usually takes me about five minutes to figure out whehter I like someone or not. 98.7% (random number... ;D) of the time I like the person. And once I've subconsciously established that I like them, it's difficult for me to see the "wrongs" about them. Like...I'll notice stuff, but it won't be as big of a deal to me or won't matter as much and I can blow it off much easier because I just generally like them, which I know can (and has) hurt me. But with those I generally DON'T like, it's EXTREMELY difficult for me to find something good about them. Which I don't like or appreciate about myself.
"All ESFJs have a natural tendency to want to control their environment."
Oh YES...I like everything being a certain way, I know that. And when change comes...well, either two things happen. Either I'm completely thrown off and it's BAD, or I observe the changes very quickly and can figure out what I can do to control the change that's happening. I know that this isn't always a bad thing, but it can become bad when I do ALL the controlling and won't let anyone else do it. I'm very independent, and I know that. I've relied upon myself a LOT in the past, and I still do it today, though less cause I have David.
That's been an interesting thing for me, letting him have some control of the environment and letting myself rely on him. He makes those two things VERY easy to do because I trust him so much, but there's still sometimes that urge within me to just take everyone into my own hands, cause I like to think that I can handle myself the best.
Another thing that goes with this is privacy. I NEED that control. I NEED that privacy. I am an EXTREMELY private person. Things that don't seem like a big deal to some people are HUGE for me. One of my biggest pet peeves is when I tell someone something I consider a "private thing", and then they go tell someone else cause my...I guess you could call it "secret", isn't a big deal to them.
"They're usually quite popular and good with people, and good at manipulating them."
Uh-huh...OUCH. And I know it. I know that I know how to manipulate. I did it ALL the time when I was little. And I was GOOD. And today that scares me, because I don't wanna manipulate people. I mean, there's good manipulation as in persuasion for a good cause, and so I don't mind that. But the bad manipulation? Youch...I try and stay away from that. But every now and then...I catch myself...I think this is the thing about myself that I don't like the most. Because it's hard for me to control sometimes.
Ok so I think that's good for tonight...wow this seems like a REALLY personal post to me...hah. So you guys got to read a bit about what goes on in my head about some of the not-so-great parts of me. I hope you...uh...enjoyed? How bout learned something? There we go, that's better. Hope you learned something and maybe understand some things a little more.
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