If I know what love is, it is because of you...

Hello my dear blog...it's been awhile hasn't it?

Well I return to you with an arm full of stories, a stomach full of cramps, and a face streaked with tears. Not only is it that time of the month, it's that time of the year...the time that I've both been looking foward to and dreading. He's gone. David's gone. He left this morning to go to Johnstown for Cadets. And I won't see him again until graduation, more than a month away. Even then it'll only be a few hours. After that he leaves...gone for the entire summer.

Goodness...I dunno how I'll survive if THIS is the state I'm in right now!

I have cramps. I have a sore throat. The headache's coming. I have the tears. And I have one of those stinkin' pimples that looks horrible and on top of that it hurts. Lovely.

Last night when I came home my mom asked how I was, seeing as I had just spent my last day with him and all that...I told her I was doing ok, reality hadn't really hit yet. Well my friends, it's hit.

It was just all of a sudden. I got home, called David, and then planned to go blog some about the list of things that I've been wanting to blog about. After I got off the phone, I went downstairs, saw the sister on the computer, she was doing work, so I decided to go back upstairs, crash on mom's bed and watch some good old junk TV. Well then I got stuck. Finished a movie, started another one, and next thing I knew the phone was ringing. So I rushed downstairs and saw mom and she commented on how I didn't look too good and she kissed my forehead and then hugged me...and then I fell apart. I don't know how or what started it but I just lost it and started sobbing into her shoulder...it was just like BAM. REALITY. I was up in my little TV world where nothing was real...where I didn't have to face anything or think about anything.

I think that's all my blogging for now...I just wanna go lie down...

I learned that goodbyes will always hurt, pictures never replace having been there, memories will bring good or bad tears, and words can never replace those feelings.