Monday, December 21, 2009

The SAVE button...

...is my friend.

I just caught myself clicking it over and over again and it made me laugh...so I thought I'd post, cause Word is having some technical difficulties right now.

Yes...the save button is indeed my friend. I click it a LOT. I mean a LOT a lot. I click it normal times...when people are supposed to click it, like after I've finished a huge paragraph or when I'm all done, but I also click it a lot in between. Like...I'll finish a sentence, and click it maybe five times...but I don't really realize it. I just go up and click save a couple times...maybe I like the clicking noise of the mouse? I dunno. And then also, if I'm stuck and I can't think of anyting...I'll hit the space bar to start a new sentence, and then I'll click the save button. I do that ALL THE TIME...even though it makes no sense to save just a space.

I'm an oddball. But one thing is fo' sho'...me and the save button? We're tight yo'. WORD.

"Bedtime Stories"

Ok, so I REALLLLLLLLLLLLY gotta go do homework, but I gotta post about yesterday cause it was SOOOO good.

So originally the plan was that DK was gonna come over and spend the day playing in the snow with me, Josh, and Sanya. But that didn't exactly work out, so what ended up happening was that I ate lunch with dad, got to talk to him for awhile (it was really nice), and then the DK mobile picked me up and we (meaning DK's dad, freshman hobo of a brother Andrew, DK, and me) went to go see Avatar.

IT WAS SO GOOD. I LOVED IT. IT WAS AMAZING.

Such a good movie...SO INTENSE (I think DK and I killed each other's hands), but SO good. It made me really emotional too. Like...I didn't cry, it wasn't a crying movie. It was a me-getting-steaming-angry-movie. I was LEGIT mad at about two parts in the movie, I was HAPPY HAPPY when the commander finally died. Great movie.

Then afterwards I went back to DK's house and there was the coolest little contraption on the table! It was like...two wooden circular tiers, and on the inside were shepherds that were on a platform that rotated, and on the bottom part there were wise men that rotated. And get this...there were candles around the whole thing, and when you lit the candles...THE STUFF ROTATED. Fascinated me for awhile. ;D

Ate some dinner, grabbed "Bedtime Stories", and went downstairs. It turned out to be very different than what I was expecting, like it COMPLETELY exceeded my expectations. No IDEA it was gonna be that good. It surprised me though, cause it wasn't just completely a comedy, sure there were some funny parts, but that wasn't all of it. It was amazing.

Then I went home and me and mom watched the Survivor Finale upstairs in her bed. I fell asleep up there with her, which was kinda fun. I woke up at two in the morning and couldn't get back asleep for like an hour...but it was a good sleep. And then two-hour delay!! Which I used to sleep some more...haha.

Ok, wow, too long of a post, I gotta go do homework. I got rhythm, terms, a math worksheet, studying for math, German translations, studying for science, and checkpoint questions. Yaaaaay...sports!

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Why did I ever grow up?

Today was SUCH a good day...it was exactly what I've been needing.

I went over to DK's around 11 and we got to decorate gingerbread men with his mom and some of the girls from her Sunday School class. I made a Santa Claus one and DK...had fun figuring out how to work the icing bottle thing. That made me smile. :]

I got to stay at his house until about three, and then we had to leave...I was kinda disappointed, well actually really disappointed. I was secretly wishing that I could stay really late...but it's ok, cause the time we did have together was great and the day turned out to be really good.

When I got home I kinda just collapsed on the couch. I was still a little upset and just needed some time to be a couch celery. So I was sitting on the couch and Sanya came up and asked (very politely...gotta love her) if I wanted to go outside in the snow and play with her. I said no...I was too lazy to get up. So she got on her coat, snowpants, boots, gloves, and hat and went outside to the backyard to play by herself...

About ten minutes later, I went up to the window to check how she was doing, mostly wondering where she was, and I saw her playing...by herself, and I just felt HORRIBLE. I felt like the meanest sister in the world. I had given up a chance to play with my baby sister so I could sit on my big butt and watch STUPID tv. How PATHETIC is that?

So I marched myself upstairs, squeezed on three layers of pants (I don't own snowpants), grabbed a sweater, sweatshirt, got my jacket on, found random gloves, yanked a hat over my head, and ran outside to play with her. Best decision of my life.

We had the BEST time. Josh was using our sled over at the neighbors and so we borrowed a neighbors sled just to use in our backyard. Our yard has like NO slope to it at all, so instead, we just pulled each other around by the rope attached to the sled. It may not sound like much...but it was great.

Then we got to lay down in the snow and TALK, when was the last time I really talked to my sister? I've been way too busy to talk to a lot of people...it's sad. So we laid in the snow, freezing to death, and watched the snowflakes fall from the sky.

After awhile, we headed over to the neighbors and I decided to stay outside and sled at their house (they have a big hill) even though Sanya wanted to go inside. So I stayed out for like 20 minutes...and then headed in. Inside waiting for me, was a cup of hot cocoa and three games laid out on the coffee table in the living room. She told me I could pick whichever game I wanted...I felt so incredibly special. You have to understand that my sister likes everything to be in control...very organized...very planned out...she likes to be the one that decides everything and makes all the choices, so it was huge that she was letting me pick...at least I thought so.

So I sat at the coffee table, with my hot cocoa topped with whipped cream (I did that part), and played Mancalla (sp?) and then Quoridor (sp?). Two great games that I can't spell for my life.

Later after dinner, mom asked us to go outside and shovel the part of the driveway around the car, in case we need to get out tomorrow. Honestly...I really didn't feel like it. I had already been outside and I really wanted to just sit down and start some homework cause I wanted DK to come over tomorrow (which is actually TODAY cause it's 12:09 right now) and for that to happen homework had to be done. But for some reason I decided to go out and shovel...again, best decision ever.

We all got bundled out, went out and shoveled for about 15 minutes (it wasn't that bad), and then as we were bringing the shovels around back, I had the sudden urge to tackle Josh...so I did! The next 30 minutes that followed included wrestling in the snow, running away screaming like our heads were chopped off, making snow angels, throwing snow at each other, dragging the sled around, and playing two games that we kinda just randomly made up on the spot.

Sidenote: Those two random games were made with you in mind, DK. There's one where it's gonna be like guys against the girls wrestling sort of thing...Sanya's decided she wants to wrestle you, haha (my sister has a crush on my boyfriend...it's ADORABLE), and then the other game involves pulling the sled around and once again, Sanya's like, "I can't wait until DK does this...I'm gonna go SO FAST!!!!!" So yeah. Tomorrow better work out cause all three of us are looking forward to it. ;D

AnyWHAT (remember that post? haha!), it was a ton of fun...we haven't played all together in a long time and it was really great.

After I came inside I got some homework done (LINC cards), but then I got distracted and laid down on the couch and watched TV. I saw "Mamma Mia!" for the second time, and cried...again (do NOT ask how I cry while watching "Mamma Mia!", it's just one of those things) and then I saw "Marley & Me" for the first time and I cried. So...big crying night, but it was like the good kind of crying...if that makes sense. ;D

MLIA

So I check this site pretty regurlarly for a good laugh and since I'm kinda bored I figured I'd put some of my favorites:

Today, I rear ended another car and the person I hit happened to be a midget. The guy got out his car and walked to my window, looked up and said, “I am not happy.” I wish I had the courage to say, “Then which one are you?” Instead I just apologized. MLIA

Today, me and my best friend made a pact, that on each of our weddings, we'd stand up, say: I'd like to make a toast, take out a toaster, put it on the table, wait for the toast to pop up, and sit down casually. I can't wait. MLIA (Someone better do that for my wedding! ;D)

Today I asked a french bloke if he played video games. He said Wii. MLIA.

Today, I realized that Bob the Tomato and Larry the Cucumber, the two main characters in Veggie Tales, are fruits. MLIA

Today, I was short 50 cents for a bus ride home to see my family for Thanksgiving. Dejected, I turned to go sit on the curb. An elderly homeless man dug into his pockets and gave me the 50 cents I needed to get home but demanded that I had to give him five. Confused, I told him that I did not have that kind of money. He smiled broadly, grabbed hold of my wrist and then slapped me five before running across the street. MLIA

Today, I was working at my store and a customer was frantically searching for something. Her English wasn't great and she kept saying "Chicken Balls, Chicken Balls". We searched the entire store to find small meat balls made of chicken until we finally realized she meant eggs... MLIA

I was sitting on a couch watching TV with my dad and an ad for New Moon came on. Right after Edward says "This will be the last time you see me." My dad shouts "Well thank god for that!" at the TV. I just gained more respect for him. MLIA

Thursday, December 17, 2009

My mom's arm

Please pray for my mom right now.

So my mom's first grade class went on a field trip today to the high school, and she has a new student (who barely understands/speaks English) and he wanted to touch everything, so my mom held his hand through most of the hallways and stuff, but he was pulling away from my mom a lot (she was holding his hand with her right hand...the REALLY bad arm...) and there was a couple of times when he yanked her arm and so she would have to physically restrain him while he's kicking and dropping his dead weight on her, all while her arm is going through extreme pain.

When they got back to the school, she went to the nurse, gets Tylenol and an ice pack, and then goes to the teacher room for something. Well the teachers see, start asking questions, she explains, word gets to the principal (who knows about mom's condition with her arm, it was bad last year) and the principal SUSPENDS THE FIRST GRADER and sends my mom home. Like gives her no option, she HAD to go home. And she is in SO much pain...like if she sits and doesn't move her ENTIRE ARM she's ok, if she moves her shoulder just a bit, or like slouches or ANYTHING she almost starts crying. It is SO bad...

Pray for the kid's parents too...they also know very little English, and they have trouble controlling him but they feel bad and are just apologizing so much...I feel so bad for them...

Just pray for the whole situation. We're hoping that he gets moved out of the school to a "behavioral classroom" or something like that...we think something's wrong developmentally or something like that.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

I'm the big bad wolf???

My day. Yeah, parts were rotten. It was going pretty aight in the beginning, and then I got into a movie quote debate with DK and I got proven "wrong" (even though we learned later I was technically right...whatever) and of course I hate being wrong, especially about movie quotes, but I wasn't like legit upset, so I just said like an off-hand comment but then it was taken seriously...or at least I felt like it was, and that just kinda set me off into an even worse mood...even though I KNOW that it's not even that big of a deal. I don't even know...yeah, it's not even CLOSE to being that time of the month.

My body's emotions are just screwy lately. Like...EVERY STINKIN LITTLE THING is getting under my skin. Like things that don't even matter, are majorally ticking me off, which puts me in a bad mood, and when I'm in a bad mood, the bad sarcasm comes out, and when the bad sarcasm comes out people end up taking everything I say seriously and it gets me into trouble cause other people get hurt. So you know what I've realized? I've realized that when I'm upset, I should just keep my big mouth shut or people need to learn that they can't listen to anything I say. They have to know that I don't legit mean it, that it's just me fuming in one moment. But I betcha ten minutes later, I'd be fine.

So anyway...on with the day...it was ok. Nothing like TOO bad...just not a good day. And here's the funny thing, I dunno if I could even tell you WHY it wasn't good, it just wasn't. So don't ask why. Hah...can you tell I'm back into that bad mood phase? Maybe you should just quit reading this post now, I say stupid things that I majorally regret when I get upset.

I dunno, I just feel like I'm messing up a lot lately, but like I'm not even realizing that I'm 'messing up', if that makes any sense. Like I'll do something that I think is totally fine, but it gets someone else really riled up and then they get all upset with me and I feel like I'm constantly proving myself or explaining myself or just SOMETHING like that...I dunno, I can't think.

Oh, another thing, I feel like I'm getting in trouble for being ME. Like...I'll act a certain way or something or say something and then someone else will say something and I won't agree and then they're like shocked or something that I'm not siding with them like I 'always' do. And then I become the big bad wolf because I disagreed with them over something puny.

You know...Sanya had a huge meltdown tonight over something really little, but once she started getting upset she got REALLY upset and EVERYTHING just poured out. And I was talking to mom, and she said she doesn't think it's the little thing that got her upset, it's our whole stressful family situation emotions coming out. Like on the surface...Sanya's been doing ok, but I'm positive she isn't. I bet it's the same with me right now...I just thought about that. Like everything that's annoying/frustrating me is so LITTLE, and I KNOW that, but it's not helping...I just have so many stupid emotions to deal with that they're all coming out at the wrong people and at the wrong time but no one quite gets that so I get into even more trouble for being upset. I don't know if that made any sense, but whatever.

I just...feel so alone sometimes.

ANWAY, I digress...tonight we had our Winter Concert and it was pretty good, kept my mind off of things and I actually had a really great time. I hadn't thought stuff was bugging me as much as it's been or whatever, but apparently it was cause DK commented that I seemed off tonight or something...

I want to have happy days again...I've been having lots of little happy moments, but overall bad days...

I wanna be a little girl again...I want my daddy to be able to hold me in his arms and whisper in my ear that everything is gonna be all right...you know what, I don't even care if he doesn't tell me things are gonna be ok...I just want my daddy...

Sunday, December 13, 2009

I'll Stand By You

"Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now.
Don't be ashamed to cry, let me see you through
Cause I've seen the dark side too.
When the night falls on you, you don't know what to do,
Nothing you confess could make me love you less

I'll stand by you,
I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.

So, if you're mad get mad, don't hold it all inside,
Come on and talk to me now.
And hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
But I'm alot like you.
When you're standing at the crossroads, don't know which path to choose,
Let me come along, cause even if your wrong

I'll stand by you,
I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.

Take me into your darkest hour, and I'll never desert you.
I'll stand by you.
And when, when the night falls on you baby, you're feeling all alone,
You won't be on your own, I'll stand by you."

Wish I could make things better for you, I love you.